Why am I doing this? 

For money. I think that there are other valuable benefits from this, by critically thinking about my life more, sharing in a more genuine way, and cultivating a richer, deeper life for myself and maybe other people. I think sharing in a more genuine way is a big one. I lost myself with instagram – I felt icky, vain, superficial, and hated that version of myself. For whatever reason, I get the feeling of chasing or forcing something when I think about posting on Instagram and I hate that feeling – so icky. I tried sharing a blog anonymously, but I feel like that makes it lose all meaning. The courage, vulnerability, and honesty of really sharing is exactly what gives a blog its power.

I recently lost a meaningful friendship (for now) because I was investing in a project that I wasn’t emotionally invested in and therefore was reticent to sharing it to his begrudgery- I would like to make this a more meaningful project that I feel proud to share publicly. 

Anyway, especially since this is a public blog, I hope that parts of me become visible through each post. The goal of this is rawness – whatever comes out of it, I’ll let it be magical. Honesty is integral.